Birds that Fly

We came into town under cover of night, because we were pretty sure the people here were going to hate us once they really got to know us. It was summer. It's always summer with us. In our lives together, which are sweet in the way of rotting things, it is somehow permanently summer.

The moon rose above the trees, older than time, greener than money. You hung your head out the window of our dusty lemon yellow El Camino and howled, and I turned up the raido, because the sound of your voice was alreayd begining to get to me. The speakers crackled and the music came through: Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons. Pretty as a midsummer's mourn, they call her Dawn. Let the love of God come and get us if it wants us so bad. We know where we are going when all of this is done.

Some people might say that buying a house you've never actually seen close-up is a bad idea, but what does anybody know abotu our, needs anyhow? For us it was perfect. The peeling paint. The old cellar. The garden in the back. The porch out front. The still air of the living room. The attic. Everywhere entirely unfurnished and doomed to remain largely so, save for our own meager offerings: a cheap sofa, an old mattress, a couple of chairs and some ashtrays. maybe a table salvaged from some diner gone into bankruptcy, I don't remember. Neither do you. We drank store-brand gin with fresh lime juice out of plastic cups, or straight from the bottle and we spread ourselves out face-up on the wooden floors. An aerial view of us might have suggested we'd been knocked down, but what we were doing was staking our claim. Establishing our territories. Making good. Not on the vows we'd made but on the ones we'd really meant. You produced a wallet sized transistor radio out of nowhere and you found a sympathertic station: somebody was playing Howlin' Wolf. Smokestack Lightning. O yes, I loved you once. O yes, you loved me more.

Nothing Better

I know there's a big world out there like the one I saw on the screen
in my living room late last night,
it was almost too bright to see.
And I know that it's not a party if it happens every night.



Don't you feed me lies about some idealistic future.
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures.

How to Say Goodbye

Leaving isn't quite the same, he said to me,
As running away.

Not doing History

1. When you were little, did you parents ever tuck you in?
Yeah, I think
2. Do people tend to interrupt you a lot?
Um, I'm not sure
3. Does it hurt your feelings because you feel that they don't really care what you're saying?
Maybe
4. Do you drink mountain dew? If you do, does it make you sick afterwards sometimes?
No, Mountain Dew is yucky
5. When you go to a vending machine, what do you usually get?
Um, Rootbeer, Sprite or water
6. Do you like paydays (the candy bar)?
I don't think I've ever had one.
7. Do you like to sleep on the couch?
It's okay. I don't mind.
8. Do you know someone that refuses to swear?
Yeahhh..
9. Have you ever heard your parents swear?
Oh yes!
10. Do you honestly care how you look?
It's the most important thing!
11. If you use firefox and if it doesn't recognize a word, do you add it to the dictionary?
I sometimes use firefox, but I don't know what the question is talking about.
12. Are you embarrassed to tell people you take surveys?
Um, not really.
13. Do you hate crowds?
No! I Love crowds!
14. Do you hate long lines? Especially in an amusement park?
YES. Especiallllly in amusement parks!
15. Do you go to a lot of amusement parks during the summer?
No, but I would LOVE to!
16. When in class, do you raise your hand before you speak or do you just speak out loud?
I just kind of say things!
17. Have you ever been a big fan of shakespeare?
No.
18. Have you ever seen a real live fox?
Yes, in my yard!
19. Do you rub your eyes a lot?
Sometimes
20. Do you get your eyebrows waxed professionally?
Sometimes.

Are your hands cold?
Always.
Do you avoid risks and if possible stay at home?
No!
Is it easier to live when you're evil?
It depends on your definition of living.
If your friend were doing dangerous drugs would you tell their parents?
No! I might even join in!
Have you ever given blood?
Fuck no.
What is your favorite movie with Adam Sandler in it?
I'm pretty sure he ruins movies. 50 first dates I guess.
Can musicians be held responsible for influencing people to behave badly?
Nope.
Do you believe that there are subliminal messages embedded in some TV shows?
I don't know. I don't really care.
What movie would you NEVER want to see?
Anything Horror! Saw, Hostile, Bag Head, Firday the 13th etc..
What annoys you the most about yourself?
Lack of Motivation
Has anyone ever tried to kill you?
Cars have!
What's the most annoying sound?
Lip smacking or fingers/feet tapping
Would you adopt a stray kitty wandering through your neighborhood?
If I wasn't allergicccc :c
Describe what you look like:
Tired, sick, dirty, blonde, chubby, short, non-curvy
Describe what you ARE like:
Odd, silly, unfocused, flirty, bubbly, loud, annoying, lazy, girly, romantic, sleepy, escapist
Is it better for people to change and evolve their ideas or always be cons?
Huh?
Do you have any interesting scars?
A spider bitttte
How did you party new years eve 1999?
I was eight so, probably with my brother disney channel, soda, chex mix, and cheese cubes

Thoughts on having sex whilst having your period?
Um. No! The pill!
Have you ever done volunteering work aboard?
No.
Have you ever had straight edged bangs?
Yeahhhp.
Should Rihanna go back to Chris Brown after what he did to her?
Nope.
Can you pull off leggings?
Leggings are ridiculous and ugly!
Have you ever used guitar picks as an accessory?
On a necklace
Do you ever watch tutorials on YouTube?
Sometimes!
Guys wearing wife beaters out in the streets, yay or nay?
Sure! If they can pull it off it is so attractive c:
Can you stand spicy foods?
No not really. Pepper is really the only spice I can handle, and even it's too much sometimes!
Do you give nicknames to boys you like?
Sometimes, if one seems to fit
Don't you just think of perverted things when you hear the story of 'Little Red Riding Hood?'
Noooo....Is that common?
Do you care that Michael Phelps smokes pot?
Nope!
Glad that Blink 182 are coming back?
YES! loserific!
Is it a miracle to see you eating a fruit?
No! I like fruit!
Do you have a healthy diet?
Not at all.
How humid is it over there?
It's drrryyyy
Is anyone in the room on the phone right now?
Nooo
How good are you in terms of 'saving up' money?
I'm good if it's for something I want.
Are you easy to talk to?
I don't know, am I?
Do you know a very emotionally sensitive guy?
Yes, more than one..
What's your internet homepage?
Etsy or facebook
How often do you check your email?
Pretty much never
Ever watched pus coming out of a pimple?
Um, yes..
Ever been to the principal's office?
I think so.
Do you need professional help?
I need a doctor!
Know any victims of HIV/Aids?
Noo
^ Do you KNOW the difference between HIV and AIDS?
Yepp
Ever thought of adoption?
Of puppies!
Have you ever thought that somebody near you could read your thoughts?
No
Have you thought of 'dirty' thoughts today?
I guess so?
Do you have a shower stall or a bath tub?
Both!
Have you ever watched a whole season of a TV series in just one week?
Umm, probably
Does everyone have a best friend? Why not?
Um, no, but I DO!
Who's prettier? Nicky or Paris Hilton?
Paris I guess....

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
Not that I am aware of.

How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Love him, as long as he's making Kayla happe!

Have you ever smoked pot?
No :c

Would you hug your ex again?
Yeah

How did you feel when you woke up today?
Sick

Have you ever driven without a license?
Maybe

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yesss

Was yesterday better than today?
No

What time did you go to sleep last night?
3:00 ish

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
Siyaa

Are you happy right now?
Not really

What is in your pocket?
Don't have one right now

When is your birthday?
December 18th

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
Scott made it for me

What color are your eyes?
Green and brown

How tall are you?
5' 4"

The last song you listened to?
Xavia

Are you a forgiving person?
I think so

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
I think.

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
Yeeees

What does the last text message say in your inbox?
"Yay! I totally agree lol c:"

Collecting

My DVD's !
Across The Universe
The Beatles, "A Hard Day's Night"
My Neighbor Totoro
Atonement
Mars Attacks
Punch-Drunk Love
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Marie Antoinette
Moulin Rouge!
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Corpse Bride
Love Actually
Feast of Love
Charlie Bartlett
The Royal Tenenbaums
Little Miss Sunshine
The Life Aquatic
Penelope
Interview with a Vampire

DVD's I really want to be mine!
Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist
Thirteen
Mrs.Pettigrew Lives for a Day
The Count of Monte Cristo
Chocolate
The Science of Sleep
October Sky
Everything is Illuminated
Harry Potter 1, 3, 4, 5
Running with Scissors
Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights
About a Boy
How to Deal
Garden State
Amelie
Big Fish
Meet the Robinsons
The Phantom of the Opera
The Illusionist
The Prestige
I Am Trying to Break Your Heart
Fight Club
Into the Wild
Paris Je t'aime

Wilco!

Things I Like

Please don't cry,
This world of words and meanings makes you feel outside
Something that you feel already deep inside

Mended!

I am going to spend almost $400.oo on Dresses!