Becoming Marie

Birds that Fly

2009-03-23T20:38:00.001-07:00

We came into town under cover of night, because we were pretty sure the people here were going to hate us once they really got to know us. It was summer. It's always summer with us. In our lives together, which are sweet in the way of rotting things, it is somehow permanently summer.

The moon rose above the trees, older than time, greener than money. You hung your head out the window of our dusty lemon yellow El Camino and howled, and I turned up the raido, because the sound of your voice was alreayd begining to get to me. The speakers crackled and the music came through: Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons. Pretty as a midsummer's mourn, they call her Dawn. Let the love of God come and get us if it wants us so bad. We know where we are going when all of this is done.

Some people might say that buying a house you've never actually seen close-up is a bad idea, but what does anybody know abotu our, needs anyhow? For us it was perfect. The peeling paint. The old cellar. The garden in the back. The porch out front. The still air of the living room. The attic. Everywhere entirely unfurnished and doomed to remain largely so, save for our own meager offerings: a cheap sofa, an old mattress, a couple of chairs and some ashtrays. maybe a table salvaged from some diner gone into bankruptcy, I don't remember. Neither do you. We drank store-brand gin with fresh lime juice out of plastic cups, or straight from the bottle and we spread ourselves out face-up on the wooden floors. An aerial view of us might have suggested we'd been knocked down, but what we were doing was staking our claim. Establishing our territories. Making good. Not on the vows we'd made but on the ones we'd really meant. You produced a wallet sized transistor radio out of nowhere and you found a sympathertic station: somebody was playing Howlin' Wolf. Smokestack Lightning. O yes, I loved you once. O yes, you loved me more.

Nothing Better

2009-03-02T20:11:00.000-08:00

I know there's a big world out there like the one I saw on the screen
in my living room late last night,
it was almost too bright to see.
And I know that it's not a party if it happens every night.

Don't you feed me lies about some idealistic future.
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures.

How to Say Goodbye

2009-02-25T18:47:00.000-08:00

Leaving isn't quite the same, he said to me,
As running away.

Not doing History

2009-02-21T13:46:00.000-08:00

1. When you were little, did you parents ever tuck you in?
Yeah, I think
2. Do people tend to interrupt you a lot?
Um, I'm not sure
3. Does it hurt your feelings because you feel that they don't really care what you're saying?
Maybe
4. Do you drink mountain dew? If you do, does it make you sick afterwards sometimes?
No, Mountain Dew is yucky
5. When you go to a vending machine, what do you usually get?
Um, Rootbeer, Sprite or water
6. Do you like paydays (the candy bar)?
I don't think I've ever had one.
7. Do you like to sleep on the couch?
It's okay. I don't mind.
8. Do you know someone that refuses to swear?
Yeahhh..
9. Have you ever heard your parents swear?
Oh yes!
10. Do you honestly care how you look?
It's the most important thing!
11. If you use firefox and if it doesn't recognize a word, do you add it to the dictionary?
I sometimes use firefox, but I don't know what the question is talking about.
12. Are you embarrassed to tell people you take surveys?
Um, not really.
13. Do you hate crowds?
No! I Love crowds!
14. Do you hate long lines? Especially in an amusement park?
YES. Especiallllly in amusement parks!
15. Do you go to a lot of amusement parks during the summer?
No, but I would LOVE to!
16. When in class, do you raise your hand before you speak or do you just speak out loud?
I just kind of say things!
17. Have you ever been a big fan of shakespeare?
No.
18. Have you ever seen a real live fox?
Yes, in my yard!
19. Do you rub your eyes a lot?
Sometimes
20. Do you get your eyebrows waxed professionally?
Sometimes.

Are your hands cold?
Always.
Do you avoid risks and if possible stay at home?
No!
Is it easier to live when you're evil?
It depends on your definition of living.
If your friend were doing dangerous drugs would you tell their parents?
No! I might even join in!
Have you ever given blood?
Fuck no.
What is your favorite movie with Adam Sandler in it?
I'm pretty sure he ruins movies. 50 first dates I guess.
Can musicians be held responsible for influencing people to behave badly?
Nope.
Do you believe that there are subliminal messages embedded in some TV shows?
I don't know. I don't really care.
What movie would you NEVER want to see?
Anything Horror! Saw, Hostile, Bag Head, Firday the 13th etc..
What annoys you the most about yourself?
Lack of Motivation
Has anyone ever tried to kill you?
Cars have!
What's the most annoying sound?
Lip smacking or fingers/feet tapping
Would you adopt a stray kitty wandering through your neighborhood?
If I wasn't allergicccc :c
Describe what you look like:
Tired, sick, dirty, blonde, chubby, short, non-curvy
Describe what you ARE like:
Odd, silly, unfocused, flirty, bubbly, loud, annoying, lazy, girly, romantic, sleepy, escapist
Is it better for people to change and evolve their ideas or always be cons?
Huh?
Do you have any interesting scars?
A spider bitttte
How did you party new years eve 1999?
I was eight so, probably with my brother disney channel, soda, chex mix, and cheese cubes

Thoughts on having sex whilst having your period?
Um. No! The pill!
Have you ever done volunteering work aboard?
No.
Have you ever had straight edged bangs?
Yeahhhp.
Should Rihanna go back to Chris Brown after what he did to her?
Nope.
Can you pull off leggings?
Leggings are ridiculous and ugly!
Have you ever used guitar picks as an accessory?
On a necklace
Do you ever watch tutorials on YouTube?
Sometimes!
Guys wearing wife beaters out in the streets, yay or nay?
Sure! If they can pull it off it is so attractive c:
Can you stand spicy foods?
No not really. Pepper is really the only spice I can handle, and even it's too much sometimes!
Do you give nicknames to boys you like?
Sometimes, if one seems to fit
Don't you just think of perverted things when you hear the story of 'Little Red Riding Hood?'
Noooo....Is that common?
Do you care that Michael Phelps smokes pot?
Nope!
Glad that Blink 182 are coming back?
YES! loserific!
Is it a miracle to see you eating a fruit?
No! I like fruit!
Do you have a healthy diet?
Not at all.
How humid is it over there?
It's drrryyyy
Is anyone in the room on the phone right now?
Nooo
How good are you in terms of 'saving up' money?
I'm good if it's for something I want.
Are you easy to talk to?
I don't know, am I?
Do you know a very emotionally sensitive guy?
Yes, more than one..
What's your internet homepage?
Etsy or facebook
How often do you check your email?
Pretty much never
Ever watched pus coming out of a pimple?
Um, yes..
Ever been to the principal's office?
I think so.
Do you need professional help?
I need a doctor!
Know any victims of HIV/Aids?
Noo
^ Do you KNOW the difference between HIV and AIDS?
Yepp
Ever thought of adoption?
Of puppies!
Have you ever thought that somebody near you could read your thoughts?
No
Have you thought of 'dirty' thoughts today?
I guess so?
Do you have a shower stall or a bath tub?
Both!
Have you ever watched a whole season of a TV series in just one week?
Umm, probably
Does everyone have a best friend? Why not?
Um, no, but I DO!
Who's prettier? Nicky or Paris Hilton?
Paris I guess....

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
Not that I am aware of.

How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Love him, as long as he's making Kayla happe!

Have you ever smoked pot?
No :c

Would you hug your ex again?
Yeah

How did you feel when you woke up today?
Sick

Have you ever driven without a license?
Maybe

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yesss

Was yesterday better than today?
No

What time did you go to sleep last night?
3:00 ish

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
Siyaa

Are you happy right now?
Not really

What is in your pocket?
Don't have one right now

When is your birthday?
December 18th

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
Scott made it for me

What color are your eyes?
Green and brown

How tall are you?
5' 4"

The last song you listened to?
Xavia

Are you a forgiving person?
I think so

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
I think.

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
Yeeees

What does the last text message say in your inbox?
"Yay! I totally agree lol c:"

Collecting

2009-02-19T13:58:00.000-08:00

My DVD's !
Across The Universe
The Beatles, "A Hard Day's Night"
My Neighbor Totoro
Atonement
Mars Attacks
Punch-Drunk Love
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Marie Antoinette
Moulin Rouge!
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Corpse Bride
Love Actually
Feast of Love
Charlie Bartlett
The Royal Tenenbaums
Little Miss Sunshine
The Life Aquatic
Penelope
Interview with a Vampire

DVD's I really want to be mine!
Nick and Norah's Infinate Playlist
Thirteen
Mrs.Pettigrew Lives for a Day
The Count of Monte Cristo
Chocolate
The Science of Sleep
October Sky
Everything is Illuminated
Harry Potter 1, 3, 4, 5
Running with Scissors
Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights
About a Boy
How to Deal
Garden State
Amelie
Big Fish
Meet the Robinsons
The Phantom of the Opera
The Illusionist
The Prestige
I Am Trying to Break Your Heart
Fight Club
Into the Wild
Paris Je t'aime

Wilco!

2009-02-09T19:19:00.000-08:00

Things I Like

Please don't cry,
This world of words and meanings makes you feel outside
Something that you feel already deep inside

Mended!

2009-02-01T13:21:00.000-08:00

I am going to spend almost $400.oo on Dresses!

Heart in a Cage

2009-01-31T23:05:00.000-08:00

Well, I don't feel better
when I'm fucking around.

Clutter

2009-01-27T19:04:00.000-08:00

Gabrielle's birthday presents have been purchased! They are fantastic! I also have a new black dress, that is wonderful and has lace AND frills. And is a size four! Hurray! I cannot wait to work on the birthday card!

Something Vague

2009-01-24T22:33:00.000-08:00

Now and again,
It seems worse than it is.
But mostly the view is accurate .
And you sink in your chair.
Brush the snow from your hair.
And drink the cold away.
You're not really sure,
What you're doing this for,
But you need something to fill up the days.

Lots of Work

2009-01-21T20:34:00.000-08:00

<-magic

They think the future's bright as halogen,
we know it's pretty bleak.
And we kid ourselves there's future in the fucking,
but There is no Fucking Future.

Whale.

2009-01-19T19:41:00.000-08:00

I'm getting rather fat. Disgusting.

Celia&Robbie

2009-01-16T21:24:00.000-08:00

Find you. Love you. Marry you. And live without shame.

Post Secret

2009-01-03T22:25:00.000-08:00

Is really nice. And I like it. I wish it didn't have a myspace or facebook though. I think that's stupid. This secret is very very Marie! Even though all of France blamed her for everything, and hated her, her wonderful shoes and parties were there!!

Departure!

2009-01-03T19:23:00.000-08:00

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamed I held you, in my arms
when I awoke dear, I was mistaken,
and I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy, when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

I'll always love you, and make you happy
If you will only say the same
but if you leave me, to love another
you'll regret it all someday.

You told me once dear, you really loved me
and no one else could come between
and now you've left me, and love another
you have shattered all my dreams

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

Arrival!

2008-12-29T08:18:00.000-08:00

Feast of Love

2008-12-25T23:01:00.000-08:00

I need names for my new Octopus, Meerkat, Hedgehog, and Bunny!
Someday I want to have a stunning DVD collection. I think that is one of my goals. I love movies so much. It would be fantastic. I need to make a list of ones I already have! It's not too many though. I got Interview with a Vampire, Feast of Love, and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind today!
I think I am going to curl my hair tonight! Tomorrow morning I work until 3, then I am going shopping! Which should be fantastic if I remember to deposit my check!

But remember when I moved in you,
and the holy dove was moving too,
and every breath we drew was hallelujah.
Jeff Buckely!

I am a Gentleman!

2008-12-24T15:26:00.000-08:00

I had my buddies go to the Cheesecake Factory and to see Despereaux with me! And I got three new dresses! One tulle skirt! and three new hair accessories, all with feathers. Despite the fact that the feathered dress was too small for me, I have survived, and am coping with it gracefully. Sort of. I really need it! I really miss Gabrielle! :[

Length Loses My Intrest

2008-12-20T17:08:00.000-08:00

LOS CAMPESINOS!
Your telegrams are more and more less detailed by the day
And all the characters are strangers and the pubs have different names.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Fondness makes the absence longer
Length loses my interest,
I'm a realist, I'm insatiable
There's future in the fucking,
but there is no fucking future.

I cannot emphasise enough that my body
is a badly designed, poorly put together vessel.

FANTASTIC

2008-12-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

I just typed up a very nice description of nice new things I have but, it got deleted. Which I do not appreciate.

I have a Wonderful new necklace from miss Gabrielle! I have never seen anything like it before!It is the most perfect necklace ever created and and and AH! I also have a new purple and flowered scarf I am in love with from someone I am in love with! There are other things I will have to be taking pictures of, because I can't describe them well anyway.

Tuesday and Today have been absolutely amazing.

I miss my darling Gabrielle deeply.

Sparkly!

2008-12-14T17:14:00.000-08:00

Friday I wore frilly dresses with a bow and tights. After School I had a grilled cheese and hot chocolate, got presents for people, and had a wonderful time in the snow taking pictures and making videos. Then went to improv which was pretty good, then to Spot Coffee which was fantastic, of course!
Saturday I was not frilly and was stuck watching wrestling.
But today I got two new nail polish colours, Jewel and Calypso, diamond-y hair clips, colourful hair clips, bobby pins AND 18 colours of glitter!

1 brownstone
2 charoite
3 carnelian
4 aquamarine crystal
5 lapis lazuli
6 onyx
7 tourmaline
8 smoky quartz
9 turquoise
10 yellow barite
11 fire opal
12 florentine gold
13 peridot
14 sterling
15 crystal fine
16 garnet
17 golden beryl
18 kunzite

And now I have finished putting two coats of Calypso on my nails! Oh and I have some new mascara! And fifteen miniature bows!

Licentious Crackpot!

2008-12-11T19:14:00.000-08:00

Today I painted my nails shiny pink. The colour is named Impulse! I wore my wonderful Gabrielle scarf all day. She is a kitty today, as opposed to her normal mousy essence.

Icy!

2008-12-10T19:59:00.000-08:00

Today was pretty good. I wore my flowery dress and brown boots! My hair was awful though.

At work when I was taking the trash out I apparently looked so helpless and girly that Will's friend who saw me from his car felt compelled to help me! Yay! A frilly success!
I also had grilled cheese, which is thrilling, and fantastic.

There is a Bird on Your Head!

2008-12-09T19:19:00.000-08:00

Today I wore a lacy shirt, green skirt, black boots, and black and greyish argyle tights. And a necklace! It was quite a cute outfit. The boots were a terrible failure in the snow though. My feet are still freezing! The library and Coffee place were fantastic, and most definitely count as frilly activities!

Gerald is careful. Piggie is not!
Piggie cannot help smiling! Gerald can.
Gerald worries so that Piggie does not have to!

Gerald and Piggie are best friends.

Failure

2008-12-06T21:08:00.000-08:00

This week was intensely disappointing. And all the homework isn't even done yet. I cannot think of ONE frilly activity that I have been a part of. I am terribly ashamed and distraught.
This is utterly unacceptable.

It's also very cold.

Narcolepsy

2008-12-03T19:48:00.000-08:00

Today, I was not Marie Like.
I did have a miniature Frosty and French fries, but I am unsure of weather that counts or not. The baby frosty was adorable though!

Maybe the boys in English count for something.

I keep falling asleep everywhere. I'm quite exhausted!

Top Shop!

2008-11-30T11:56:00.000-08:00

Pout Premium Pom Pom heel

I wish that there was a Top Shop in the United States that I could go to. I am in love with their winter Going Out stuff. It's all so wonderful!
Today I'm wearing my pleated green skirt with my black 3 button 3/4 sleeved hoodie, blue star tank top, and (the best part) Lacy tights adn Gabrielle's heels!
I have also decided it is much better to accept that I will Not participate in any homework, than to pretend to be motivated enough to work!

Satin Corsage Belt

Gold Painted Jeans

Satin Bow Backed Dress

SEQUINED Party Frock!

The Little

2008-11-29T19:52:00.000-08:00

I bought my pixi lip blush yesterday! Which is an acomplishment, because I have been babysitting it at Target everytime I visit. That was yesterday though.
Today I was not too frilly. Mostly cause I had to go to work earlyyy, and woke up late, so I lacked the time to become girly.
My nalis are painted shiny navy blue with a sparkly topcoat!
Today I went to the indie theatre, so maybe that counts! J'adore mon garçon!

Hair!

2008-11-27T23:17:00.000-08:00

Most tragically I have not done anything frilly today.

Yesterday was much more successful:
My roots were bleached, and all of my hair was made a paler blondie colour.
Then I proceded to curl it and apply make up, for no reason! Fantastic!

Actually, I have lied about my frilliness today.
I wore my party dress, tights and heels all day! And wore dusty pink eye shadow!

Tomorrow I hope to purchase Pixi Lip Blush in Love !

The Strokes!